Unfinished

butthetruthis:

But the truth is…

They’re not counting people who aren’t good looking enough for them.

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I can’t give you the world, its out of my reach,

I can’t tell you i’ll never hurt you, for out of my ignorance comes pain, 

I can’t say that I’ll never let you down, because absence is a huge disappointment 

I won’t always know what to say, because sometimes i’ll say the worst thing

But…

I can give you my world, and everything that I can get

I will spend every minute with you trying to make it up, and i’ll never stop trying to learn.

I will always be there to pick you up, and try never to be late again

I will learn to shut my mouth, because most times its not that you said anything at all, its that you were there. 

don’t put yourself down, there’s enough people in the world that already try and do that, instead build yourself up so that their petty words can never reach you.

one of the many things that fascinate me and confuses me at the same time, I always find it very interesting to read poetry. But I am rarely able to truly understand what the poet is trying to say. Though the words are usually beautiful even if they are tragic. Maybe i’ll never be able to truly understand poetry in all its glory, but thats the beautiful thing about poetry, like music you don’t have to fully comprehend the meaning to be moved by it. 

This is only gonna be a short post, maybe people will debate this but its just an opinion. I believe The hunger games is one of the best series of books that i’ve read so far in my life. And though I am part of the Harry Potter generation i’m starting to believe that it has a slight edge over it. Now by no means do i dislike harry potter in any way, its just that Katniss was made more human, more of someone who we could relate to, while harry was always this innocent, pure, almost heavenly person who always did the right things. Now a lot of things were similar, they both lost people they loved, they both fought against the “evil” in their respective stories, and they both survive. But while harry’s family died when he was a baby, katniss’s loved ones died around her, where she saw them. And harry fights one evil wizard, katniss fights a whole society that rules over her. 

All in all I love both stories, but to me the fact that katniss was more relate able to me, and the fact that the author was more willing to kill some major characters leads me to like it just a little bit more on those principles alone. To me Harry Potter has a better story line, and has better supporting characters, plus a longer series which shows the growth and development of the characters over time. so all in all i would say that its a tie. runner up to both of these series is: A Series Of Unfortunate Events. a good read.

if your not happy with where you are/ who you are/ or just with yourself, then just change it. quit focusing on what makes you unhappy, and do something to change the thing that makes you unhappy. The More You Know.

if you ever feel alone and unloved then just know that God loves you, and if you don’t believe in God then know that I love you. hope everyone has someone to love:))

Sounds rather depressing just from the title alone, but trust me its not supposed to be. 

I used to be alone, for years it seemed. I mean sure I had “friends” at school and my family, but truth be told I felt like i was separated from them somehow. I didn’t get along with my brother and sister, my parents were always busy with things, and my school “friends” were exactly that, I never saw them outside of it, and to be honest they weren’t the best friends to have. 

Even if you don’t believe in God, a higher power, or anything mystical. I believe that someone finally noticed that I couldn’t take it anymore, and somehow allowed me to be transfered to another school, a public school. And its there that I finally found people who loved me and cared about me, and finally got me to realize how to open up myself. Now I didn’t really meet these people till my senior year, but i had others who helped me out along the way, they were just stepping stones till i met the people who would change my life.

My friends, I don’t know if they know or could ever possibly conceive how much they mean to me, how much they’ve helped and taught me. How much I love them. I know that I’m not the easiest person to get along with, that I’m loud and obnoxious and i go very overboard with certain things, but they’ve stuck by me through it all. 

I’ve met others along the way, and they have became a big part of my life and i care for them just as much, but these guys are the ones that saved me from myself.

Furthermore, (this will only make sense to those who know what I’m talking about). the reason why I was very reluctant to go on spring break in 12’ was not because i was gonna get my tattoo finished or anything like that, it was because I didn’t know if I could see her again without making it awkward. Not saying that she would, only that I didn’t think I could see her again without making myself become someone else. confusing i know but let me explain. You see I had liked this girl for what’s now going on 3 and a half years, and at first i didn’t think it was an actual attraction, more of a type of hero complex, where i think i like her because she saved me from myself type deals. But then as time passed these feelings didn’t change, and the more i learned about her the more my feeling grew. Its not like I think she’s perfect, I know she has flaws but those were a small inconvenience that never once bothered me. 

So all this time had passed and nothing really had changed, until finally i was listening to Adele on the radio and i decided to just tell her, mind you i did it in a cowardly way, i told her in a text, which in hind sight is a terrible way to tell someone how you feel. As you who know me can tell the feelings weren’t mutual, and i was fine by that, but maybe its just me but it seemed to put a barrier between us, i mean we didn’t talk everyday but we messaged back and forth a bit, but after that we didn’t talk for more than a month, and then things started going back to normal until i decided i needed to tell her again just in a round about way, needless to say nothing has changed. 

And so here I was, stuck in this confusing mess I had created in which I wasn’t sure if it would be better if I just quit being friends with her because i couldn’t stand that prolonged period of silence again. So up until this past friday night i was determined to just let this gap grow in between us, I thought that maybe if I let go it would be better for the both of us. Then i saw her, i talked to her, i listened to her, and i found that i didn’t want to let her go, like it or not she was my friend before i let myself get carried away with delusions, she was one of those people that saved me from myself. Now I realize that I will never be the one that she likes in that way, I at the very least can still be friends with her, and i’ve come to realize that, that is enough for me. Because I can’t go back to that feeling of being alone. I used to think that you were alone if you didn’t have a boy/girlfriend, but i’ve come to realize that as long as you have people around you that you care about and love then you are never alone. 

Yeah, i know it took me a while to come up with that knowledge but at least i learned it. 

So Thanks to Aaron, Casey, Dalton, Katy, and Regina for everything.

… turned out a lot different then i thought it would originally but its thetruth.

It only gets you so far. I understand most people wish for things they can’t have or what not. I think make a wish foundation is amazing, and i’m not bashing them or anybody else when i say most wishes are wasted. We use “I Wish” a lot, whether its I wish i was…, or I wish they were… i mean we waste time wishing for things that we could get ourselves or things that we can’t change. In all honesty quit wishing you were something your not and do something to change it. If you want to be more open and friendly then quit being so quiet and reserved, if you don’t want to be fat, than go on a diet or work out. We’ve turned a saying that is a little childish into an excuse basically. It just makes us sound like we will never be able to get it. Like only if someone gets it for us will we be able to have it. It just doesn’t make sense to me anymore.